UPDATE: Not Just Another Diet Failure
Mom, I’ve got to be real with you. I’ve been off my exercise and eating plan for longer than I’d like to admit. This is supposed to be a year of change for me and I find myself going back to the same habits that didn’t serve me last year.
You know that moment when you step on the scale or try on those pants and realized you’ve grown beyond your biggest number? That devastating realization that you need to purchase more clothing or you’ll be wearing exactly one outfit every day until you lose weight.
It’s so disheartening. I know because it happened to me the other day. As you know I don’t own a scale at home nor do I recommend people buy one. There’s a reason I avoid them. They don’t tell me what I need to know plus they’re debilitating when you’re looking to make a life change the way I am.
Well, I stepped on one anyway. Laughing all the way until I looked down and saw a number I’ve never seen before.
Yeah, you know the one.
The number that I swore I would never see as long as I lived.
Just like the largest pants in my closet that I swore would never get too tight.
Needless to say, I’ve seen that number and I’ve squeezed into those pants and for the first time in two years, I’m unhappy.
- I’m spending most of my time volunteering to help others.
- My first three books are published.
- The love of my life is at my side and supportive.
But the weight is not something I can ignore or laugh off anymore.
There’s a misconception that unhappy people are the only ones that overeat. People that have some kind of deep dark secret whole that only food can fill.
It’s simply not true.
I’m sure you’ve told me this before, mom, but I must have forgotten. There are just as many people with perfectly happy lives that just have a hard time saying no to the amazing food options that are made available to them in a day. I think knowing you’ve got diabetes and my dad has high blood pressure and high cholesterol has been a real fear factor in my life. I’m not going to ignore the signs staring me straight in the face.
So it comes down to a decision I’m going to have to make. I’ll need to make it every time I sit down to eat or go to put something in my mouth.
Will I say yes to my new healthy, and a beautiful body or will I say no?
Because each decision needs to be weighed and measured along with me. I don’t believe in diets any more than I believe in starving myself. However, I do believe that you can choose to eat for nourishment and not overeat to the point of gluttony. Saying yes to one thing means saying no to something else.
What am I doing wrong?
I haven’t been going to the gym.
My water intake still isn’t where it should be.
The food we’ve been buying hasn’t all been nutritious.
My food journal has been empty for the past few weeks.
I’m going to keep saying ’yes’ to what I want: a body that makes me feel amazing.
And saying ‘no’ to what I don’t want: a body that’s sluggish and can’t fit into any of my clothes.
I know it’s not too late to turn things around. If you’ve got any more advice for me let me know.
Anyone else struggling already and it’s only February?